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Your Divorce Coach
Hello, I'm Nawal
The founder of Your Divorce Coach, I bring my unique expertise and personal experience to the forefront, specialising in the intricate dynamics of divorcing from narcissistic partners.
Having been through my own divorce and as a devoted mother of two boys, I understand the emotional toll that the process can take. I provide a compassionate approach and a customised strategy to help you achieve a positive outcome.
With a background as a qualified solicitor and accredited mediator, I combine my legal experience and mediation skills to provide tailored support to navigate the treacherous waters of narcissistic relationships. I'm here to guide and empower you to overcome challenges and embrace new beginnings.
I can help you, because this is a situation I understand only too well.
I married young, well, young by today's standards I guess! I met my husband when I was 22. I was married by 26 and became stepmother to two small boys aged 4 and 18 months. I was blinded by this absolute charmer, the man of my dreams. I genuinely couldn't believe how lucky I was; that he wanted to be with me. I was love-bombed, swept off my feet in a whirlwind romance, the stuff you see in movies.
Fast forward 15 years...
An affair discovered (on a family Christmas holiday to Australia); years of physical, mental and emotional abuse, two small boys and a divorce bill of £20,000! I was broken. I didn't know who I was, what I liked, what I didn't like. I was full of self-doubt. I would overthink little things. I felt uncomfortable receiving love and I didn't believe any of my emotions were valid. I no longer had any self-worth. I was on anti-depressants because I couldn’t sleep, I weighed a little over 9 stone (with a 5 '11" frame). My days were consumed with trying to understand what was going to happen and trying to comprehend the situation I found myself in.
During the divorce, my ex-husband played all the classic tricks that I now know narcissists pull.
We tried couples counselling, but he only attended two sessions. I would cry, he would say, "she’s a good actress. It’s all drama." No apology, no explanation. I was told "you need to think about why you made me do this." He was courting his mistress, whilst making empty promises to me. He was playing us both. He hid money, he hid accounts, he falsified bank statements, he refused to give my solicitors and I proper financial disclosure. He resigned from his job. He would consistently reduce the money that was available to me to pay bills and put food on the table. He didn't care that our family home was to be sold, he had no concerns about where the boys and I would live. Oh, and, did I mention him getting his mistress pregnant halfway through our divorce?!
I was confused; I was desperate. I was lost; I was petrified.
He used the common narcissistic behaviour of flying monkeys and triangulation. The use of others to push his story. His version of events. A PR stunt to make him look like the victim. Today, because of my experience and training, I can see all the tricks and underhand behaviour that was played out. But back then, none of it made sense, I was out of my depth. His family were supportive of him. My family lived far away in different countries and my mother passed away in my twenties. My friends were my lifeline. My one goal throughout was to make sure my boys did not suffer. I wanted to remain living in our village so that my boys would have the same opportunities and we would be around our close network of support. I couldn't break down, I didn't feel I could. I had to pick myself up and just keep moving forward.
My experience made me the person I am today.
It is perhaps strange for some to understand this but now, years later, I am genuinely thankful for the lessons I’ve learnt. I am grateful I got out. I realise now that there were warning signs, 'Red Flags' about him and his behaviour. I unconsciously decided to ignore them, to minimise them. My experience has taught me the 'unteachable'. I learnt how to fight for survival, I learnt how to deal with a narcissist, one of the most psychologically damaging personalities. I learnt how to stand on my own two feet and I learnt that the fear is a lot scarier that the reality. I became free.
I set up Your Divorce Coach because I realised other people needed help.
Friends would talk of people they knew that were going through a divorce and they needed help. Would I talk to them? Tell them what it’s like? I was a solicitor and I had been through it all. Yes, of course. They must feel so lost, I could relate, I wanted to help. Nine years later, after seeing how many people needed support in their divorce journey, I decided to create Your Divorce Coach. I have helped hundreds of clients. I support my clients all day, any day. They can call me in the evenings, at weekends and during holiday. Divorce doesn't really have opening hours, it affects your whole being, it's all consuming.
A large proportion of my clients deal with narcissistic abuse.
I support them in any communication they need to address, and I also teach them strategies to cope with a narcissist. As any psychologist will tell you, the only way to deal with a narcissist is to cut them out of your life. But you can't do this if you have children. You can't really co-parent either. However, there are ways to manage this process until the children are old enough to communicate on their own. I teach my clients how to empower their children; providing them with techniques to help their children cope with having a narcissistic parent.
I have found my purpose.
I want to help my clients reach a place of safety. I know what they are going through. I want to provide them with the support and clarity that they desperately need in the midst of all the chaos and trauma that divorce can bring. Especially when divorcing a particularly difficult personality.
'I wish I had found you sooner"
This is the most repeated phrase that my clients say to me. They really wish they had found me sooner. I wish I had found me sooner too. But, it’s OK, because I’m here now. I’m here to help if you need me.
Thank you so much Nawal for sharing your story with us.